Natalia was only two years old when her mother left El Salvador to come to the U.S. So, to Natalia, she鈥檚 a stranger.
鈥淚 have no memories of my mother. I don鈥檛 remember anything about her. I just had pictures of her.鈥� From the time she left in 2002, her mother had paid a family in El Salvador to look after Natalia. One of her earliest memories is of watching her friends get picked up from school by their parents. 鈥淣o one would pick me up.鈥�
More than a decade later, Natalia鈥檚 mother summoned her to the U.S. Soon after, Natalia left to make the journey alone with a coyote.
Reuniting with her mother has been the hardest part of the life in the U.S.; even more than adjusting to the language and the weather.
鈥淚t was very difficult because it was a new country in which I didn鈥檛 understand anything, not even my mother. She鈥檚 the person who gave me life, but I had never met her, and I didn鈥檛 know her.鈥� Natalia says her mother expects her to be the little girl she left behind. 鈥淲hen I came, she wanted to take care of me, tell me what to do. But I grew up by myself and I took care of myself. I don鈥檛 need anyone to tell me what to do.鈥� They argue a lot and her mother gets upset with her. Natalia misses the family she grew up in, especially the man she called 鈥榙ad.鈥� She feels she鈥檚 lost a family, rather than gaining one.
For Natalia, who is now 17, 鈥渟chool is the greatest help.鈥� At first, it was challenging getting used to being in school for a full day, rather than the half day she was used to in El Salvador. But she鈥檚 always loved school, so she focuses on her studies and knows that she wants to be a civil engineer. Natalia tries to be 鈥渧ery friendly and very smiling鈥� all the time because she鈥檚 noticed that other students are not always nice to those who aren鈥檛 fluent in English.
She says there are other girls who are going through similar experiences, but she hasn鈥檛 shared her story with them. 鈥淢y story is very long, and very sad, and talking about it reminds me of everything I鈥檝e suffered.鈥� But she is grateful for the network of adults at school. Natalia says she was surprised by how many teachers are kind to her, asking how she鈥檚 doing and helping her feel comfortable. 鈥淎 teacher, Mrs. Johnson, came to me every day to ask how I was feeling, even though I wasn鈥檛 used to talking about my problems. She was patient and she helped me when I was feeling sad or wasn鈥檛 feeling well.鈥�
Natalia is juggling responsibilities at home. She works 30 hours a week in a bank, she鈥檚 her mother鈥檚 primary caregiver since she recently fell ill, and she looks after her young nephews. From doing very well academically and getting As and Bs, this year she鈥檚 received Bs, Cs, and Fs. She doesn鈥檛 attend classes as consistently as she did in the past, because she feels tired and gets stressed more often. Still, school is her refuge.
Her favorite class is gym, where she can play soccer like she did as a little girl. She gets to run around the field with the wind in her long black hair and laugh with her friends. 鈥淭his is a place I love the most. I can come here and play like I used to play in my country.鈥�
